Baby..

Drove past Columbia Asia Hospital last few days..Recalled my lost baby..Tidied up the baby clothing that I bought last time, heart wrecking to see the tiny clothing, that my baby never get a chance to try on.. I do wonder how would things turn out if my baby is still alive.. I would be at late pregnancy now, anticipating to meet the little one in my tummy.. Or perhaps I would have delivered the baby.Huggin you tight in my arms.

SIGH.

Somehow, I'm missing the baby again. Im wondering if its my fault for failing to keep the baby, or perhaps the baby thinks that Im not fit enough to be a mum yet? I'm wondering if the baby is doing well now. Did he/she met Grandma there? Perhaps accompany grandma for walk? Keeping grandma busy not to worry bout grandpa?

I believe daddy misses you as much as I do too, but not to let mummy know.Daddy has been keeping mummy great company whether at work or travel. He has been trying his best to keep mummy occupied with a lot things so mummy do not have time to be upset over you anymore.

HUGS.

We really miss you alot.

=)

17 Aug 2009

Reached LCCT, called bro to check things out with him. Were told he found a job. Will be working along with the wife's bro. Very happy for him. Told him, if he couldn't get used with the job and home there, we would be glad to have him back home anytime. At least he tried, rather than giving in to the wife. Told us he's doing well there, enjoying his work alot. We were so relieved to hear that. Would continue to pray for him.

Final call

11 Aug 2009

When we were still in KL waiting for the next flight to GuangZhou, called my bro and told him what his wife have been text messaging harassing us. Told him we were very fed up with his wife, and would hope that he could handle her and pls do not upset us anymore. The last msg the wife sent me, were to inform us that they are actually going for a honeymoon.WTF. When everyone were so upset, worrying for them, she's actually acting to make us feel terrible, then to tell us they were actually away for holiday. Insane woman. I reckoned bro was very upset with the wife too, but he's very softhearted. He has been trying his best to solve the problematic bitch whom he brought to the family, and at the same time not to hurt parents and the baby. We prayed the best for him and the baby.

Best Actress

10 Aug 2009

I'm leaving for China tomorrow. Yet I had a very bad day. That bitch has been harassing our family again and again. She made so much scene,ignoring everyone at home, treating herself like a queen and being such a bitch, she wanna shift to KL with my bro and the baby. Her asshole dad and family are in KL. We are very aware that her parents wouldn't wan her to return, as they couldn't stand her temper either. Their parents are also very stingy and calculative. If the 3 shifting over, they gonna make the household expenses to go higher. But, somehow that bitch still insist to shift over..We gave in. We were worried sick for my brother to stay with her asshole dad. Preparing these and that, worrying these and that for my bro and the baby.


So this morning, my dad and bro drove her down to Bintulu. Cos she booked the return ticket to KL flying from Bintulu tomorrow. I know its weird, why she wanna fly there. Reason, not to let us seeing my bro and the baby off. BITCH. My dad was of course upset, as he dotes the baby the most. My mum is in KL now, preparing to fly to China with us tomoro.I lost count of times my mum cried for the baby and bro.

When everything is almost settle. We have almost get over that they are gone. She sms me how sorry she is, how pathetic she is wanting us to forgive her etc. I was like WTF. What is she trying to do? Trying to ignore her sms again and again. She confront my sad dad. BAH! She sms me saying she couldn't bear to leave us etc, couldnt bear seeing my bro and dad in despair blah blah..then some more, she got bit cough and heat now, maybe could not even got on the plane. CB. And say, since she dont wanna make my bro and dad so sad, she would return after ENJOYING her holiday in KL. CB CB CB.

You get it? She made such a scene where everyone was so upset, and when everyone had yet got over her nonsense. When everyone at home were in such a sad mode, worrying for my bro and baby, couldn't bear them leaving for so long. Now she's telling us that she's only gone for a holiday, will be back after she had enough. We gave them so much money, since we are so worried they hafta start over etc. That CCB now say she's just gone for a holiday! I almost burst my blood veins!

Aaaaaaaaaaaargggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Im going insane soon. BAH. I have been so worried for my parents and bro for so long. Then now, that bitch wanna come back. Just toying with our feelings???

Bitch

Had family dinner last night. Its the first and last dinner together ever since the bitch create so much scene. It was heart wrecking, seeing my bro in such a hard position. Watching my mum so heart ached. Throughout the dinner, the bitch was treated transparent. We were treated transparent by her too. She didn't even greet my parents at dinner. Its very rude for not showing any respect. Finished her meal then leave in hurry to her room with the baby. Leaving her unwashed plates there for my bro to clean up. She never wash her own dishes, even do her own laundry. My parents did everything for her, yet she's not happy enough. Hating them for not loving her as much as there love me. For the sake of harmony, we bear all these through the dinner, just to let my parents and bro feel better.

After dinner, bro quickly brought in the baby to let mum hug for the last time. Since mum is leaving to KL the next day, and they will be leaving the day after permanently. My heart breaks, seeing my mum hugging the baby, telling him next time when you come back, I don't think you remember grandma anymore. Mum was in tears. We held back our tears. The bitch asked my bro to leave asap. She actually checked in to hotel earlier, just to make sure bro and baby don't spend time with my parents, even for the last time. I really hate her. Why does she need to be so cruel?

After they left, I grumbled to dad that she's rude for not greeting them. Dad was forgiving, telling us to forget it. He's happy enough she's willing to sit down to have dinner with us. I doubted her sincerity to apologise. She sms everyone saying how sorry she was, but her actions prove that she was not sorry at all.

I brought my parents out to shop after dinner. They went all the way to baby sections to buy the baby more clothes, as they wouldn't be seeing him for sometime or perhaps forever? It hurts to see them like that. We knew very well they have been treating her very well, much better than any of their own children. Yet she's still taking it for granted.

Got home. Putting the new baby clothes to their room. Saw the packed luggage. Every piece of the baby clothes were purchased by me and parents. Even more despair. We have treated her well enough, yet she never realised. Only to hurt us more with words and her actions. Nor matter how terrible or how much madness and chaos she created, my parents never shout or scold her. And her asshole dad called and shouted at my mum to ask me to go and die, for the reason, he thinks I'm an outsider to talk for my parents. WTF. At one point, I hope she would leave forever, dint ever come back. Yet on the other hand, I'm so worry for my bro. SIGH. Its such a dilemma.

I pray for peacefulness for my parents.

I pray that AhBee would do well there.

I pray that he would settle down soon.

I pray that he would remember this family.

I pray someday, he would be back to us.

I pray that we could have happy family dinner like before.